my blog is not my search for subtlety and originality. it is not my goal to find an obscure, novel reading of some text. my goal here is to return myself to freedom, to liberate myself from my unfounded worries, to find the meaning of my life and the meaning of reality, to find truth that makes me whole, to find a perspective that brings me into a peace and light that is not an escape from the dark but its dissipation on account of the meaning that I may have for it. i am not an exegete. i am trying to live a meaningful and fulfilling life as a human being.